You may get the song for free or donate any amount you wish. I will collect it and give 100% to Ukrainian queer people, who need to flee their home abroad, to another city, or just left without money and are in crisis.
Ok, I did something and wanted to share.

youtu.be/chhQTTQMA10

These last weeks were truly awful. I was trying to do things, stay positive, block all emotions other than anger. But it is hard. I feel like I don’t do much and I know, it doesn't matter what I do - it won’t be enough to stop the Russian war on Ukraine. I know, I am not alone in these feelings.

Last nights, between working, chatting with people who needed my support, constantly updating pages of news websites, Twitter and Facebook, listening to the TV with one ear, and waiting till my family in Ukraine wakes up and says that they are fine and I can go to sleep now - there was a gap. I felt like I needed to do something else.

I am an artist, and art - it is a big part of my activism, my therapy, my everything. And I turn to music during my best and worst times. Since the war broke down, I have had this song constantly in my head, “Sentenced - Killing me, killing you”. What a fitting name, isn't it? It was a song from my student years, I loved it back then, it was such an amazing song about a broken relationship, but cool, you know? So I decided to cover it. Although, it is hard to call a cover or a song. It is more of a music piece inspired by, with spoken words, some vocoded vocals I often have in Mr Robokov's music, new meaning, and some additional drama. I changed the genre, mood, lyrics (a bit), melody. And I have been doing this for the last several nights. It turned out to be a bit raw, unpolished, and nervous. But the song took me there, and I did not resist. So, music - done. Sent it to my fellow Klaus in Berlin to master it. Thank you for doing it so fast, you’re amazing!

Then, I decided that I want to make a lip-sync video for the track. And I did it too. I wanted it to be about me getting angry, even furious. And it is! But, while filming it - I did not manage to control myself and I broke down, so in the end, it turned out to be deeply sad. I thought about it for some time, if I wanted to include this part in the video. I don’t really feel comfortable having this “emotional striptease”. But this piece is my therapy, my art. It is better, to be honest with myself and others and keep it authentic. So it is there too.

Now, what to do with it? After some discussion with myself and my husband, I decided to show it to you. I understand that it won’t cheer up people involved in the war or give them some hope. If you need such - look elsewhere. If it is hard for you now - don’t watch. However, if you need to get angry, allow yourself to cry or if you're a lucky person who can control their emotions now and doesn't mind listening to some new music - here it is on Youtube by this link youtu.be/chhQTTQMA10. And if it helps some people to understand what we are going through - good, that’s important too.

For the second part, activism - I need your help with it a bit. I will sell this track here, on Bandcamp, you may get it there for free or donate any amount you wish. I will collect it and give 100% to Ukrainian queer people, who need to flee their home abroad, to another city, or just left without money and are in crisis. Things, we are trying to do with Munich Kyiv Queer as well. Here comes your part - please, share it. The more people see it the more chance that they will donate to the cause.

And for those who worry - I am ok (under the circumstances), also partially thanks to doing this art project. Another important thing - we will win this war! It was just a moment for me to stop, take a break, let emotions take control over me, and now go further with newfound strength.